In a recent interview with Billboard, Lady Gaga admitted about her recent battle with depression. She opened up about her mental health and shared her experience. Additionally, she also spoke about post-traumatic stress disorder. However, she bounced back strong. Further, Lady Gaga gave a lot of importance to therapy. The 34-year-old pop star revealed that her latest album, Chromatica, is about her journey through pain and healing.
Lady Gaga’s struggle with Depression
Lady Gaga revealed that her own identity triggered her depression. Every day, she would wake up, realize who she is, and get depressed about it. It was a very rough time for her. For a significant amount of time, she was afraid to leave her house. She lived in constant fear that the media would capture every single move, every dull moment.
Further, she admitted that her condition got worse after her Joanne world tour ended in 2018. She had trapped herself at home. Moreover, she resorted to chain-smoking and heavy alcohol consumption. She was in knee-deep pits of depression.
My existence in and of itself was a threat to me. I thought about really dark (stuff) every single day.
Friends and Therapy
Gaga further spoke about how she pushed her friends away when they tried to help her. She said that she pulled the “I’m Lady Gaga” card. Explaining that, she said,
It’s the one where you go, ‘I’m Lady Gaga, you don’t understand what it feels like, I want to dress how I want and be who I am without people noticing, why does everybody have to notice, I’m so sad, I don’t even know why anymore, why are you making me talk about it?’
However, she gave a lot of importance to therapy. She gave due credit to the process as it helped her break this cycle. It also re-started her created process, which resulted in Chromatica. Her producer, BloodPop, revealed that before recording a session, they would spend a few hours talking about her feelings. This resulted in songs like 911 and 1000 doves, her most personal lyricism to date.
The release of Chromatica
As the pandemic spread throughout the world, Lady Gaga saw her mental health slip into jeopardy yet again. Moreover, her latest album launch had to be postponed due to the coronavirus and the Black Lives Matter protests. She also realized that the album also had to be altered to reflect the new era. Further, she said,
What a privilege! To be an artist for the world in 2020. What a year for a heart that bleeds.
Chromatica was finally released in May 2020. Time and again, Lady Gaga has stressed that the album was born from her painful past.